UNLOVING ME

“You can be the most beautiful person in the world and everybody sees light and rainbows when they look at you, but if you yourself don't know it, all of that doesn't even matter. ― C. JoyBell C.

LOVE- A very difinitive word. i do not even know if there is a true definition for this. Its four letters put together that have so much power, its an emotion you cannot describe enough with any word or action.

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We love, We are loved. But how do you unlove yourself?
An article i read recently from my favorite webpage thoughtcatalog.com inspired this post:

UNLOVING ME..

I will unlove me,
I will put away all the regret and past hurts,
And remember that you know my future better
I know my own past,

I will Put away those lonely thoughts and hurtful dreams,
And remember that my name is inscribed on the palm of your hand.
I am never alone because you promised never to leave me,

I will forgive those who hurt me and created monsters out of me,
Because your were always there with me, Standing by me,
even when i put them before you, loving me still..

I will stop obsessing over my social media pages,
And comparing my life to everybody else's,
Because your have a great plan for my life,
That gives me hope and a good future

I will put down my phone often,
And pick up your word,
Because your word is always true,
Everything you say you mean,

I will not let another human have power over me,
Because are you are my source,
And they are just resources from you,

I will unlove my self and love you more,
Because you can't unlove me.

BY FAITH NOT BY SIGHT

2 Corinthians 5:7 New King James Version (NKJV)
⁷ For we walk by faith, not by sight.

Blindfold surprise by Phil JonesPhotography

There has been something about the month of November.
One constant lesson has been re-playing OVER & OVER & OVER.

Just because you do not see it does not mean IT HAS NOT HAPPENED !!

I have come to learn there is something i now call BLINDFOLD SURPRISES.
Well, this in my new understanding is when things happen even when you cannot see it.
Some things do not necessarily manifest 100% on the spot. Its a process that is supposed to strengthen our faith and not dampen it contrary to popular belief.

A few years ago, i read an incredible story of a visually impaired man who could tell color by touch.
Yes! Just by touching anything of color he knew if it was blue or yellow or white.
I have seen things of color all my life and even with the lights off i cannot tell what color a thing is.

I have experienced a lot of blind surprises lately. Honestly, walking in faith takes a whole lotta FAITH & TRUST. Being a very logical person does interfere with Faith and Trust alot. *work in progress*

Believing when you cannot see stretches my faith muscles so hard i can see six pack forming. lolThe Bible requires of us to walk by faith because what we see is so limiting. God can do above and beyond what we can ask for or imagine. Faith begins where when we cannot see or touch or ask for or think of. It begins wher the natural meets the supernatural.
When Christ on the cross declared it was finished in the natural he was hanging on a cross lifeless. some were depressed because they thought he is gone.. it's over! Lets mourn him. The natural was so limiting.

The phrase it is finished was above and beyond what we could imagine. He had accomplished God's purpose. He had defeated the devil, death, poverty, sickness and all sorts of  earthly viles.

I do not know how far your faith and trust levels have been stretched?? But just because you cannot see does not mean it has not happened. Keep the faith. Keep trusting.

SCENTS...

“I can't over-emphasize how important an exquisite perfume is, to be wrapped and cradled in an enchanting scent upon your skin is a magic all on its own! The notes in that precious liquid will remind you that you love yourself and will tell other people that they ought to love you because you know that you're worth it. The love affair created by a good perfume between you and other people, you and nature, you and yourself, you and your memories and anticipations and hopes and dreams; it is all too beautiful a thing!” ― C. JoyBell C.

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Lately, i have been all about scents. I am shopping for a new signature scent.
I cant over emphasize or under emphasize the impact of the aroma you carry on your surrounding and the people around you?!
The right aroma has a way of changing an atmosphere.. commanding respect even.
Have you ever stopped someone to ask the name of fragrance they had on? OR even found yourself, describing to a friend the type of fragrance someone had on that day? there is power in scents.

The Bible says that our prayers and supplication go into the presence of God as sweet smelling incense.
Imagine that. Even our prayers have an aroma before God! Am telling you, there is power in scents.

Different aromas attract different things.
There is the aroma to attract money, the aroma to attract relationships, the aroma to attract the presence of God etc etc.

I watched the movie Perfume: The Story Of A Murderer.

This is the STRANGEST story script i have ever watched. 

Jean-Baptiste Grenouille, born with a superior olfactory sense, creates the world's finest perfumes. His work, however, takes a dark turn as he searches for the ultimate scent.
He falls in love with the scent of red headed woman whom he murdered by mistake. Her scent captivates him and gives him the strangest idea to collect body scents from red heads to make the ultimate scent. He embarks on a killing spree. Killing red heads, covering their bodies with oil & wraps them in polythene paper, scrapes off the oil. Melts it down decanting the vapor to make perfume." - very sick.

In my search for the best signature scent, i have come across words like: Notes, Noses, Designers..
I love fresh, floral, citrus, aquatic scents! One spritz and i'm transported to a chateau in the South of France, or the beach in Santorini..le sigh!
www.fragrantica.com is my go to site for everything scents. Especially reviews, notes, designers and noses.
Am looking something mature,simple, classy yet feminine.
The search is on.


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HE WANTS IT ALL

“But God doesn't call us to be comfortable. He calls us to trust Him so completely that we are unafraid to put ourselves in situations where we will be in trouble if He doesn't come through.” ― Francis Chan, Crazy Love: Overwhelmed by a Relentless God

There's a voice that cries out in the silence
Searching for heart that will love him
Longing for a child that will give him their all
Give it all, he wants it all

And there's a God that walks over the earth
He's searching for heart that is desperate
And longing for child that will give him their all
Give it all, he wants it all

 And he says, love me, love me with your whole heart
He wants it all today
Serve me, serve me with your life now
He wants it all today

Bow down, let go of your idols
He wants it all today, he wants it all today
He wants it all today, So give it all

There's a God that walks over the earth
He's searching for heart that is desperate
Longing for child that will give him their all
Give it all, he wants it all

And he says, love me, love me with your whole heart
He wants it all today
Serve me, serve me with your life now
He wants it all today

Bow down, let go of your idols
He wants it all today, he wants it all today
He wants it all today,
He wants it all

Oh, oh, oh, all of you, more of you
He wants it all today oh, oh, oh
(Whole thing, whole thing, whole thing)
Today, today

He wants it all today, he wants is all today
So give it all

There's a voice that cries out in the silence
Searching for heart that will love him
Longing for child that will give him their all
Give it all

He wants it all

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I was listening to a song by Regina Spektor, and the lyrics went like this:

No one laughs At God… in a hospital
None laughs at God … in a War
Noone laughs at God..when  they are starving or freezing or so very poor
Noone laughs at God.. when the doctor calls after some routine tests
Noone’s laughing at God… When it’s gotten real late and their kids are not back from that party yet..
Noone laughs at God…When the airplane starts to uncontrollably shake
Noone's laughing at God… when they see the one they love hand in hand with someone else, and they hope that they are mistaken..
Noone’s laugh’s at God .. when the cops knock on their door and say we’ve got some bad news sir
Noone’s laughing at God…when there is a famine, fire or flood..
Noone laughs at God when they have lost all thy got and they don’t know what for
Noone laughs at God.. on the day they realize the last sight they’ll ever see is a pair of hateful eyes,
Noone’s laughing at God..when they are saying their goodbyes..


In the chorus she goes on to sing, But God is real funny... ... ... blah blah blah
this got me thinking of the many ways God is funny..or hilarious for that matter...

But God's real Funny When
.. You bump into the one person you've been thinking about and didn't know how or where to locate them.

God is real funny when
.. You sit next to stranger, who will become a lifetime friend.

God is real funny when
.. You're going through tough times, and the least expected person bails you out.etc/etc. I can think of thousands of scenarios....

To be honest this post has been sitting on my draft for a while now!! it was about time i published it.

So my niece turned 11 Months yesterday!! oooh, her 1st birthday is right around the corner :)
We can barely wait!! But first, we need to celebrate her 1st CHRISTMAS!! awwwwh, am excited!!
Am the celebratory type! I give gifts a lot!! I think its that warm-fuzzy feeling am addicted to... or it's just the 'gift' in me that just keeps on giving & giving .... or maybe it because am just the mushy-lovey type.... yuurgh! :P 
Am definitely looking forward to breaking for the holidays! Am really really low on energy these days .. i NEED that break!! sigh.