RE-BRANDING

“A makeover is the rebranding of a human being.”
― Mokokoma Mokhonoana

 I have so much to write about, i do not even know where to begin!
Uuuummm, one word has constantly been ringing in my head...

makeover

[meyk-oh-ver]

noun

1.remodeling; renovation; restoration:

The old house needs a complete makeover.

2. a thorough course of beauty and cosmetic treatments:

Assistants spent four hours on the actress's makeover in preparation for the awards ceremony.

 

I am more inclined to the first definition of the word.
One of my FAVORITE local bloggers walked a mile in these shoes and she described her journey as

"Imagine yourself as a living house. God comes in to rebuild that house. 

At first, perhaps, you can understand what He is doing. 

He is getting the drains right and stopping the leaks in the roof and so on; you knew that those jobs needed doing and so you are not surprised. 

But presently He starts knocking the house about in a way that hurts abominably and does not seem to make any sense. 

What on earth is He up to? 

The explanation is that He is building quite a different house from the one you thought of…” by Coffee and Conversations

Am that house. Getting a do-over. It has been a process like no other. I can't even describe it.
At one point i felt so lost, i did not even know who i was anymore.
I would have those moments when i look myself in the mirror, and ask that face staring back at me "who are you?" - i felt totally lost!
I am pretty sure that was the point God was bringing down this house and putting up something new i never even thought of.
Now this new house is in need of new furniture. A colorful rug here, Ankara pillows there, fabulous curtains there, etc.

 

 

{ FIVE YEARS ON!!

(excerpt) : " ... I really hope the future me is able to accomplish all what I couldn't do.
I hope the future me is brave enough to take more risks, recognize opportunity, bold enough to take control of things.
God knows you deserve a whole lot more than you're giving yourself. Lord knows you have sooo much to offer the world than your dishing out!
I am 24 years old desperate to SUCCEED!! I hope by now you are on the half way Mark to achieving that ...."

My five year letter to my future self came in today. Wow! I was so young and innocent in mind and spirit...
It didn't even feel like those words came from me?! I mean, whoever that was, she was spot on! I read that letter several times and just couldn't help but think was that really me???... and to answer that question, YES IT WAS!!
Am glad to say out of the things I wrote down to accomplish, I am definitely on the half way mark!! Yaay me!!

{ For Friendships Vs. Words }

" I never ask for nothing I don't demand for myself | Honesty. Loyalty. Friends. then wealth | Death before dishonor and I tell you what else | I tighten my belt before I ask for help | foolish pride is what has held me together through the years | I just play the cards am dealt| I can't say I never knelt before God and asked for better cards at times to no avail |" (Justify My Thug_Jay Z)

iConfess #2

I value my my friendships!! I live by the 100% rule.. give your 100% and walkaway whole. Am not sure if that works for me or against me most of the times??? I am not confrontational...I don't do it on the spot cos I like to marinate over a situation to avoid overreacting. When I still can't wrap it around my head, I speak up.

 :. Did She Just Say That? .:


I walked away feeling very demeaned, disrespected and hurt. I was too shocked to say anything on the spot because my mind went completely blank. It was not what was said, but how it was said...gosh! Who am I kidding? It was everything. I pulled a 'Peps' and told myself it was NO BIG DEAL! so, I went on with things like nothing happened. But deep down,something did happen. I started to question everything...

I Questioned myself----
I Questioned my integrity as a friend ----
I Questioned my friend ---
I Questioned her perception of me. ----
I Questioned why she'd say that or even think that. I still couldn't wrap it around my head, so I spoke up.

{ RECAP MONDAY----- }

I had a pretty decent weekend... No partying involved just a laid back affair.
I met up with my girlfriends!! Simply AMAZING women!! energetic.. inspiring... smart... and a bag 'o chips!!:)
We had a good laugh.. Caught up on our lives...checked in on each others' dream lists and got down to the accountability bit of it... Julie we MISSED you!!
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iCONFESS #1

I am very personal person and have always kept a low profile and a very small social circle ever since i could walk... Somewhere down the line, i have made a DECISION or CHOICE to change this.
I decided to share my life in order to get one!!
Moving from NO SHARE to MORE SHARE is not the simplest of transitions..
I most recently joined Couch Surfer.. If you don't know what this is, its a traveling community where you host traveler(s) from all over the world and you get hosted as well... the Kenyan community is quite active...and i intend to make the best of it.. *am hoping*
Am super CAREFUL not to get social-burnout --- because at some point, i tend to feel overwhelmed or suffocated or squeezed...
In order to create a healthy balance, I've come up with my own rules --

Rule#-1:: Get out of your comfort zone.
Rule#0:: Smile
Rule#1:: One Friend At A Time.
Rule#2:: NEVER walk away from an opportunity to meet someone new.
Rule#3:: TALK MORE...
Rule#4:: Do what 'Peps' wouldn't do.
Rule#5:: The worst anyone can say is NO. So, just do it!
Rule#6:: Know when to walk away.
Rule#7:: Have FUN!
Rule#8:: APPLY THE BLOODY RULES!!

I'll make up more rules as i go along:)

{ RANDOM THINGS ABOUT ME }

1. I was born at 5 months old, at my grandmother's. Transported back home (nairobi), in a jug...with a lid on it wrapped in towels... *could that be reason why i'm sooo obsessed with personal space??..hmmm*

2. I knew my real birth date when i was 9 years old...technically i celebrated my first birthday at 10 years ... a decade later. (talk about being a late bloomer..lol)

3. My real real birth date is 04.04.84...for real this time.

4. I bruise easily ... Seriously! i brush against anything, and OUCH! another bruise. --- am glad that's got better over the years. hoooray to over-exposure.

5. (REF:  HEY KIDDO!...WHERE D'YOU GO??) ---When i was a little girl, i wanted more than anything to be a boy!! every night  for 2 weeks i prayed and asked God to make me a boy. As a testament of my faith, each morning i would run to the bathroom to confirm that God gave me,  you know... balls.

6.  I am 95% pessimist and 5% optimist. i survive on the 5%

7. Hi. My name is Peps, and i am a CONTROL FREAK!! Almost everything has to go my way.

8. I have gone through the 12 steps and beat my addiction to FRIES!! yaaay me :)

9. I failed my Nursing School Entrance Exam, because i couldn't differentiate between vertical and horizontal lines!! 

10. I am a former member of an all girl's music group called Devage.

11. I cry easily..Pain is not in the mind and NO, is not a CONSPIRACY!!

12. I am a 'SILENT CRIMINAL' --- i get away with a whole lot! Even when i confess to doing something wrong, no one believes me!! *this is the point where  go :: thanks for not believing me!!... :: aaand storm out*

13. I am afraid of .... letting go of CONTROL.

14. I have always HATED attention.. anything that would put me in the limelight, good or bad, i didn't want it! now i have graduated from HATE to DISLIKE... working my way to LIKE.

15. I used to bake AMAZING Cakes! --- Am sure i still have it in me!

16. I went through an art phase after high school...